stop following me

you tall hot sexy thing

slim slender

dancing in the light

sometimes to my left

sometimes to my right

you think i do not see you

 prancing

hiding

shape shifting

cunning

i like the way you look

especially in the moonlight

i like the way you watch over me

i like you by my side

don’t ever leave me

say you never will

because i’ll never stop

never stop writing

writing all about you

 ”dont we all love the way our shadows look”

thank you

with much heartfelt gratitude

this goes out to you

yes, you who have been coming here occassionally

just to read my blog

and find out how i am doing in life

recieved 2 comments from my friends recently

Shoonghong and Jiayi

thanks for thinking i write nicely

i really appreciate it!

i seriously need to find that spark

to start working magic

to start adding value

and to start changing lives

i feel

like a tiny ship in the sea

like a feather in the wind

like a void

this is so unlike me

i guess this will be the last post im going to write about us.

yes, i really need to get on with life.

cos life’s too short to keep deliberating,

keep hesitating,

keep regretting.

sometimes you have to take it by the horns,

and fight it straight on.

 someone once asked me

‘how do you know if you love someone?’

my answer now is simple.

you know you love her if you could have anyone in the world

and you’d still choose her

but that’s another story for another time.

goodbye carousel

goodbye

sometimes its just better to stay as friends

innocence

simplicity

just being me

 maybe one day the sun will shine again

maybe one day the winds will stop blowing

maybe one day the carousel will really stop in front of me

maybe

till that day

im just going to be me

and there they were,

smiling like silly donkeys,

hand in hand,

as merry as can be

he looked into her eyes

and she back into his

they smiled

they smiled because they knew they’d spend all eternity together

the shouts

the fights

the quarrels

they all seemed so far away

somehow they managed to will them away

for good

and years later,

they will look back

hand in hand,

pushing the tram

looking down at him

thinking how silly they used to be

somehow… this image doesnt seem to stop playing itself in my mind. its all part of growing up they say. 

and in an instant, i lost whatever resolve i had

your smile, your gaze and your sweet warm smell

i swear i could have gone on driving forever

watching over you

my greatest view

so many thoughts running through my head

fighting for that chance to jump out

to be heard

to be answered

but i guess theyll have to wait for another time,

another day

another life

perhaps.

she loves me, she loves me not

she loves me, maybe not

i wonder what its like inside your head.

i wonder what its like

and just so that you know

i still love you so

im still wishy washy…

you quarrel because you love
you love each other too much to just go with the flow

just something i picked up somewhere.
in one single heartbeat, i thought of you twice.

another random-heavy heart-emo post. it’s hard to get oneself on his feet again, but I guess, somehow I will.

what’s this feeling I’m feeling thats literally tearing me apart
what’s this feeling I’m feeling that feels like someone just grabbed hold of my heart
what’s this feeling I’m feeling of lost, tired and afraid?

i had so many things to say/to blog about when I was out with you but I seem to be at a loss for words now.

this constant blink of my cursor,
the silent purr of my laptop,
the humming of my fan.

i feel almost like a disease,
consuming both you and me.
its eating voraciously at my heart
and I can see, its taking its toll on you too

jealousy, egoism or love?
how does one tell the others apart?

if love were just about wanting to spend more time with you,
then I really do.
if love were just about hugging you without wanting anything in return,
then I really do.
if love were just wanting to hear your voice, see your face and watch you in the distance,
then I really do.

“keep your head up!”
that’s what I used to say.
guess its really a lot easier said than done
now that I’m the one

it’s quite obvious that you’re turning away from me.
it’s quite silly that the both of us keep putting up that smile.
it’s all quite silly.

will we turn around and kick ourselves? one will never know.
will we look back and wish for time to return? one will never know too.
but I know I need to keep fighting. not only for you, but for me too.

one last cry. thats what i really need, before I leave it all behind.

you burn the bridges,
you tell yourself to stop looking back.
you plan your time,
so I’ll never be there.

tell me now you evil monster,
tell me how I can make you swoon.

It’s been almost a week since I got back to Singapore. Well, all I can say is that the weather here isn’t really that fantastic. The food though, carries a different story!

So far, I’ve already managed to have

1. Fishball noodles
2. Prata,
3. Wonton mee,
4. Jap food (twice),
5. Bedok 85 pork noodles, glutinous rice balls, chicken wings,
6. AMK Vegetarian Food,
7. Ba Kut Teh soup,
8. Chicken rice!

That’s all to update for now.
Another mindless post I know. Will be doing something big for this website soon. I seriously need to get off my ass and start working on it! out!