fyp… lab… stuck…

I’m going to rant.

i’ve been stuck in the lab doing the same experiment over and over again for the past 3 days. each experiment takes an approximately 3 hours to complete, and each result takes an approximately 30 secs to tell me that I’ve made a mistake - yet again.

9 hours. gone just like that. i still can’t see where i’ve gone wrong. its just basic mixing of chemicals. measure x ml of liquid A, mix with water. measure y ml of liquid B, mix with buffer. take the 2 mixtures and mix. put in incubator. wait for half an hour. do spectrophotometry analysis. period. sounds simple? wait till you actually do it yourself! my lab supervisor told me she had to do it about 10-15 times before she got it right. she mentioned something about a skill, how we needed to measure accurately 10microlitres etc.

in my opinion, this is a waste of time. i dont see myself working in the lab. i dont see myself ever doing experiments again. i just dont see the whole lab coat, lab goggles, lab attitude thing!

i could have finished my book on options trading in the 9 hours wasted. i could have finished my book on neuro-linguistic programming in the 9 hours wasted. i could have done a zillion things i WANTED to do in the 9 hours past.

i guess the only thing im learning from this is never giving up. all i can say is that i learn to be more careful with each experiment past. i learn to be more efficient with each failure met. in fact, it took me only 2 hours to complete the same experiment i took 3 hours to do 2 days ago!

i really just want all of this to be over soon. one more year. no. 6 more months to be exact. and then i graduate!

meanwhile, i just wanna shout out to people like moses, louis, zhenyuan, shijia, shoonghong, fulin, senghuat, felicia, my bro, my parents and you, thanks for being there with me through this crazy mess. life really can take you by the balls and squeeze them hard. heh.

signing off.