i have so much thoughts pent up inside me i feel like im going to burst out like an overfilled balloon! its been ages since I last blogged and i guess that might be the reason why im feeling this way! im going to lace this post with lots of photos from the past couple of months, something which i havent done in awhile, and maybe write a lil bit. yea right. anyways, to all you who still drop by my blog once in awhile, thanks! heres some photos just for you! =)

here are some pictures of my recently bought bike. the image sizes are pretty huge (didnt have time to change them/for your viewing pleasure) so they might take awhile to load. i went absolutely nuts and spent a bomb on him/her.

anyways, just a rant, i fell down with my clip shoes on! damn. scratched my brakes/gear shifters!!! bah. couldnt undo the clips on my shoes. o man. heart pain.

these are my lovely shimano shoes and met helmet. too bad the uncle couldnt throw them in for free. =(

anyway, im really glad i bought my bike. will be doing a tour de singapur soon! wave to me and gimme a shout if you see me around! out!

ive been running quite a bit lately. i must say i love the time it gives me to think. as my footsteps rhythmically pound against the pavement, like the banging of drums, as my heartbeat quickens, like the chanting of a raving crowd, as my head becomes clear, like a cloudless starry night. i find myself thinking a lot about you lately.

its sweet how you walk, funny when you talk. its lovely when you tumble and especially warm when you smile. its awesome how you get along with just about anyone, its thoughtful that you care. it hurts when you get hurt, and troubles me when you disappear. and despite all the uncertainty, i find myself always thinking of you. you hip hop, boy band, ballerina, teacher kinda animal. =)

sometimes its easy to miss an angel like you. small petite, gentle, you. but i havent stopped thanking HIM for putting you there in my life. and now i just really wanna say ai-shi-te-ru. (and yes, i do know how to write this too.)

2008 has been treating me excellent so far! ive managed to successfully get on my training regime for the triathlon, ive managed to pick up golf and im going to get a new bike real soon! just thought id write this post to my lil one, to thank her for standing beside, behind and in front of me, constantly being my pillar of strength, my motivation, my goal-setter and someone who keeps me really grounded. =) as much as i don’t say it, thanks dearie. thanks for making my life a blessed one. really.

some people wish for the stars, others wish for the skies.
and yet with you, sometimes i look up at the heavens above,
and thank him for putting you in my life.

rocking on,
jem

every now and then something inside consumes me. it turns me into this evil monster where i think nasty thoughts, do despicable, embarrassing things, and chase all who are dear to me away. sometimes im filled with so much rage and jealousy its becomes so hard to breathe, let alone think rationally.

sometimes i wish i could run away and hide. with my back turned to the world, with my heart free from love, free from desire, void of any feelings at all. sometimes i wish the huge blue sky would take me in, to hide me in its vastness, to keep me warm amidst the clouds. sometimes i wish i could ride into the sunset, so fast that the green eyed monster wouldn’t be able to chase me.

but running doesn’t really solve the problem, does it? hiding doesn’t really make the problem disappear. and like the saying goes, its better to love then lost than to never have loved at all. maybe sometimes love just ain’t enough. maybe sometimes thoughts just ain’t enough. maybe, maybe you’ll never know if life walks you by in a circle and slaps you twice in the face for not living now.

sometimes the only way to subdue the demon is to shed a tear of two. only then does the storm subside, only then does sunlight start shining through the fog of darkness. green turns to blue and red to pink. i still stay ugly but at least it becomes easier to breathe. and only then do i realise the truth. that you never meant to hurt me. that you only wanted what was best for me. so now, from the depths of my heart, i bow down before you, and offer you my sincerest apologies and thanks.

i really havent been blogging about much stuff lately. lately its just been bits and pieces of my life, like parts of a huge jigsaw puzzle. but i guess that’s how it should be, shouldn’t it? to blog when i feel like it, to write whatever i want, to do whatever i please, whenever i deem fit!

a new year usually starts with people making silly resolutions, i call them silly because they’re probably the same ones they make every year. for me, instead of making a list of silly resolutions, i’m going to come up with a list of things i will do by the end of 2008. and to make sure i get my ass off and not procrastinate, i’m even going to break them down into months! (for those of you who come by here and actually read what i write, please kick me if im not making progress!)

1. Complete a triathlon by end April (ok… don’t laugh at me now… anyone with a spare bike to lend?)
2. Manage to successfully execute options trading at a rate of 90%!!! (by end June)
3. Pick up golf (i think im starting in 2 weeks…)
4. Grow my money into something like 40,000 dollars by end dec!!! (yes… its really possible! compound interest does wonders! all i need is 10 trades that give me 15% returns!)

I guess thats all for my list of must-dos.

The end of a year tends to bring many memories to mind, and in hand, many people. I just want to say thanks to all my friends, who’ve been there for me in one way or another. Friends who’ve seen me through my darkest hours, friends who see me through my weekly life, friends who i rarely meet (you know who you are), friends who wine with me and friends who i absolutely go crazy with.

Not forgetting my family of course, and you, my lil fatty one.

Let’s all have a smashing 2008. lifes too short to keep thinking back on the past, and regretting what did or did not happen. if youre daring enough, do what i did and drop me a comment telling me how you’d like your 2008 to be! woohoo!