and there she was sitting and smiling silently to herself
it wasn’t often that she got to come out like this
it wasn’t often that she even got to get out of the house

she enjoyed the attention
the hair dresser chatting with her while snipping away
her hair so fine, so white
she was going to get it set for later

dumdeedum… the soft music playing in the background
the warm tea
tea that smelled so sweet
laced with a tinge of jasmine

after all, it was going to be her night out
she was going to a wedding dinner
her nephew was getting married
thank heavens and bless his kind soul she thought to herself

out of the corner of your eye
you catch me watching
smiling at you smiling at yourself
and we both laugh to ourselves
silly you silly me

and then i sat there thinking
20 years ago
we might have been doing the same
me getting my hair cut
you sitting there smiling
wondering what il be like when i grow up

oh how time flies
fight as you might
clenching your teeth
somehow we never seem to catch
time that passes so easily by

sweets, toffees, chocolates and baileys.
they lift you up when youre down,
they bring you places when you were a child.
is that all there really is to them?

open your eyes you children of men,
open your mind to new worlds of wonder.
look at your neighbour,
look at your friend.

see that cunning glitter, spot that deceitful smile.
look whats under that outstretched hand,
that warm and loving smile.
then take a step back and ask yourself this.
why the extra mile?

sweets, toffees, chocolates and baileys.
do they sweeten you up,
or hide a world so foul.
do they give you a sense of hope, peace and warmth,
or is lust, evil and cruel lurking at bay.

we see more and more each day,
families torn, children abused and wives beaten.
we hear more and more each day,
back stabbing, betrayal and things that make us small.

how then do we survive,
how then do we live,
how then my friend,
how then?

baileys, chocolates, toffees and sweets.
its no wonder how why my world goes round.

a little too dark, and perhaps a tad emotional. what you said did get me thinking. i hope you’re fine my friend. because at least, i know where to go now. =)

years ago, you appeared at my doorstep, drenched in the rain.
still you managed to carry that warmth with you,
cake in hand, smile on face.

last year you appeared again,
this time with a friend,
ice cream in hand, supper to go,
smiles, warmth, hugs.

this year you surprised me again.
you sneakily got my friends together,
with help from my brother.
you got me delicious chocolate cake from taka,
smiles, warmth, hugs, laughs and a kiss here and there.

as i look and think about all this,
i cant help but feel good.
its simple, its sweet.
its uber romantic.

thank you dearie,
thank you baby,
thank you.

my bro, dad, mum and me

jamie, angie, marilyn, melissa, ken and me

cousins

A strong sense of urgency hit me as I was driving to school today. An accident suddenly flashed before my eyes and I saw myself being thrown into the air. Talk about being freaky.

What struck me was the amount of things I had unsaid if I were to pass on. *touch wood. But seriously, if an accident were to suddenly befall you, and you had that one last chance to say something to the people around you, what would it be?

I know what I have left unsaid and I know what I need to do. Do you?

These photos were taken at a company function. Don’t we all just look dashing? =)

and so it was, like 2 pieces of a rock,
they separated, and fell apart.
to the ends of the earth they went,
one in the oceans,
the other landed with a thud.

new paths they’d begin,
new owners who’d pick them up.
the path ahead is ever winding,
the path ahead is bright.

who knows what will happen,
who knows… who knows…

and yet a thread remains,
a thread of a common past.
some call it fond memories,
i call it a friendship that will last.

im glad ive found a friend in you,
im glad we’ll see each other through.

don’t go into something,
with bits of old still left in you.
start the plate, a clean slate,
love like how God’s loved you.

to the one who called me blib,
i just wanna say thank you

to my lil one, don’t be silly, i chose you.

ive been looking back recently at the life ive had, and i must say i feel really blessed…
this may almost sound like im bragging about my life, my family, my friends and you.
the truth is, im not. im just really thankful for having them in my life. thankful for great people constantly popping up in my life. so heres a lil’ something i had to write…

the occasional banter,
the secretive family gossip.
the warm laughter,
the feeling of being together as one.

the great food,
chinese and jap.
the great desserts,
ice cream | gelato.

i really couldnt ask for more.
i love my family.
my mum, dad and my bro.
i love my friends,
tom, dick and harry.

i feel the beat in my step,
the pulse in my heart.
i feel strong and powerful,
i am unstoppable.

so be jealous, be glad,
be happy or be sad.
i really dont care,
because what you think won’t get me down

and yes… i do love you. =)

havent managed to do what i want with this blog yet… perhaps im just giving myself tonnes of excuses… bah… aren’t i great at procrastinating. till next time i guess… out.

I’m going to rant.

i’ve been stuck in the lab doing the same experiment over and over again for the past 3 days. each experiment takes an approximately 3 hours to complete, and each result takes an approximately 30 secs to tell me that I’ve made a mistake - yet again.

9 hours. gone just like that. i still can’t see where i’ve gone wrong. its just basic mixing of chemicals. measure x ml of liquid A, mix with water. measure y ml of liquid B, mix with buffer. take the 2 mixtures and mix. put in incubator. wait for half an hour. do spectrophotometry analysis. period. sounds simple? wait till you actually do it yourself! my lab supervisor told me she had to do it about 10-15 times before she got it right. she mentioned something about a skill, how we needed to measure accurately 10microlitres etc.

in my opinion, this is a waste of time. i dont see myself working in the lab. i dont see myself ever doing experiments again. i just dont see the whole lab coat, lab goggles, lab attitude thing!

i could have finished my book on options trading in the 9 hours wasted. i could have finished my book on neuro-linguistic programming in the 9 hours wasted. i could have done a zillion things i WANTED to do in the 9 hours past.

i guess the only thing im learning from this is never giving up. all i can say is that i learn to be more careful with each experiment past. i learn to be more efficient with each failure met. in fact, it took me only 2 hours to complete the same experiment i took 3 hours to do 2 days ago!

i really just want all of this to be over soon. one more year. no. 6 more months to be exact. and then i graduate!

meanwhile, i just wanna shout out to people like moses, louis, zhenyuan, shijia, shoonghong, fulin, senghuat, felicia, my bro, my parents and you, thanks for being there with me through this crazy mess. life really can take you by the balls and squeeze them hard. heh.

signing off.

look at you gorgeous
you’re red hot slim and sexy
you remind me of that feeling
so wild so crazy so me so you
you turn me on at the touch of a button
you make me sad, you even make me cry
wherever i go
with you il follow
my heart my soul
my one my all

All I want to say is that my brother is the man!

He just got me this ipod nano and it seriously kicks ass! Now I’ll never have to listen to you, you boring old fart. Now I’ll look cool, with my wires white and smooth. Now I’ll get the babes, the look and the money. Now I’ll be me - dreaming all over again.

Ever so often, we chance upon someone new, or perhaps someone from the past. A friend or foe, the truth will unfold, but until then, we will never know. Some people are blessings from above - they shine their lights onto our paths, guiding us, pushing us and encouraging us, ever so gentle, ever so firm. And yet others we meet are pure vermin. They pollute our minds, rip our dreams apart and never stop draining us down. These are the people we have to watch out for, these are the people we have to rid ourselves off.

I can only thank heavens for bringing so many positive people into my life.

I’ve decided to start living for myself again. To start planning my goals, to start working on how to get there and to start fueling my rocket with explosive amounts of energy to get there. All I can say to these people is thanks for kicking my ass, thanks for waking me up. I’d still be dreaming on and on if not for you!

My dad told me this recently. “Life doesn’t always go the way you plan it to be. But that doesn’t mean that you just toss in the towel and give up.”

That’s true I guess. You hang in there and fight. You fight till you see the light again. You fight not only because of survival but you fight also for those you care about. Rejoice that you survive today, because it means that you have another chance to live on fighting.

Thanks Dad. Thanks to all of you who’ve gave me strength. Thanks.